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it's been a while since the last time i've sat to reflect on what has been happening. lotsa things went and passed and i honestly cant even remember half of them. the qual, the summer, busy lab work and occasional trip here and there, home for a month, and then the whole fall, new place, and now winter... phew, just thinking about it makes me dizzy...

the qual is done. thread the needle on that one. dont know if i would have made it through have they made me take it again. thank you fowler, you bastard. i do miss you. and no, all the resolutions i had in plan for life post-qual never came through. didnt start playing the guitar more like i planned, did't read any good books, didn't even work out much... instead, got in the stupid circle of sleep late, go out of work late, stay up late being a complete couch potatoe. blah. dont remember many good things from the summer besides the pburg trip and a bit of va beach. ok, and the repeating dc trips. its always good to talk to gechi and danielle. why didn't i spend more time with them in hammy? work wise, the lab work didnt bring any serious results, besides 6 summer research credits, which is kinda nice i guess... combined with the crappy living situation, now that I look at it, a pretty sad summer here.

going home was, as always, pretty nice. just to be in that atmosphere for a while pumps me up on few different levels... i am happy to see the elders, family, friends but it also gives me energy to be anxious to come back here. there is no near future for me there. i cannot be satisfied living in my parents' place again, regardless of my love towards them. any other option of living by myself there is just foolish and uneconomical. i hate how sometimes i only think of practical stuff... i feel i'll be a great family man.

oh and seeing grant in philly was awesome. that guy is in the same puddle of shit as i am, maybe even worse. i would not wanna have his schedule every day, and all those exams and such. but his cat is fun. and seeing katy was cool also. I feel like i've known her for a long long time. weird.

the letdown of coming back was well... ridiculous. besides the whole x factor mumbo jumbo what the heck happened dealiyo, i honestly felt that i would have a different set of people surrounding me at this point in life. i guess when i think about it, it took me a while to really straighten out who's who both in hs and in hammy and ditto. so i guess all is not lost yet :) i do keep meeting new good people every now and then... eric, yoon , richard, maybe roth... i guess, just give it time and it'll settle down...

overall, well, don't know. this looks good.